new old more book profile blog rings host

prev sad sack next
2005-02-10 | 11:44 p.m.

Feeling sad. Don't know why. Or maybe I do. It doesn't matter. I'm just tired.

Haven't been on the computer much lately. Got on tonight because something I very much need was supposed to be arriving by e-mail, but it's not there. Started going through the e-mail, sifting, because I let it go too long. I always do.

Found a cryptic note from two days ago implying that something has happened to my friend Birgit from the publishing house. Like a stroke, or an aneurysm, something like that. I wrote back but will have to wait for more information.

I found another message from last year that contained a link to a twenty-year-old picture of Stephen. I suspect the link didn't work when I first tried it out, a year ago. So it was like a little gift to find it now. Fun at first but now that I am feeling melancholic, a little sad.

Sad sacking. I haven't heard from Stephen in a long time, though I expected to. I wonder if he is mad at me?

Last night/this morning I dreamed I married Frank. Not so we could have sex (thank goodness) but so we could spend more time together. He was married to Fiona, too. It was all right.

prev archive next

if you're not reading mawm you're not reading me